There has been a series of protest by different religious groups and sectors to stop the upcoming concert of Lady gaga this May 21.

I’ve read a lot of blogs, both from those that are in favor and of the opposition as well.

I’ve read a blog written by a pastor that explains why he’s not into protesting the said concert. It’s like why condemn a sinful concert when our country’s already full of filth and sin? why stop her concert when all of her songs are already being played in every radio station? why protest when everyone’s guilty of immorality at some point? why not just make disciples and focus on a larger scale sin like corruption in the government? why act upon God’s word when there’s inconsistencies in the present church and government? having read all these made my heart so sorrowful.. mournful perhaps.

I respect the person. I know that everyone’s entitled to their opinions. I know that. Im not saying na im wiser or i know everything..NO. It’s just that having that awareness sa season ng God makes me feel like “hey guys, you’re not getting the point! it’s not about the concert, it’s not about the lyrics.. it’s about the spirit behind her. ok. you may say that there’s no harm in listening to music.. some people may say that ‘i’ve been listening to her music since birth and nothing really bad happened to me, im still a good person, im not into satanic worship..I haven’t become like her’… yeah. you may say that.. that’s because we are only aware of the things that can be seen physically, that can be felt emotionally.. but what we dont know is how about the things that are unseen? how about our values? are they being affected? of course. it doesn’t happen overnight.. pero sooner or later you’ll realize that there has been a moral decay and it all started with a simple permission… us, permitting these kinds of scene and music to enter through our eyes and ears which are the gates of our being.

So how about the inconsistencies in the church? yeah. i am a pastor’s daughter and i am aware of it. 2000 years ago, there has been changes, series of events in the body of Christ. some fell short of the standards of God.. some pursued living in holiness. We can see that Christians are not perfect.. God knows the filthiness of the Church… HE KNOWS EVERYTHING. HE HAS HIS SEASONS. And as of the moment… now is the season where God is cleansing the church, He’s letting the church pass through fire for purification and cleansing, He’s exposing the weakness of the church, it’s shortcomings for her to come in humility and repentance, for purging so that when all is said and done, the church is now ready to become the Bride of Christ, spotless, blameless, PURE.

The church may be inconsistent when it comes to moral standards before.. but now is the right time to stand for what’s right. Now is the right time to take the step to holiness. It’s about time to really protect the younger generation. It’s about time to Rise up and respond to the call of God in this nation.

…that includes stopping Lady gaga’s concert. she’s not just a pop star. she is an instrument of the devil. She is a devil worshiper and through that concert, she is building an altar of worship to satan in this country. It is written, You become what you worship… And when altars were built, there’s a passage,. an open door for satan to work in the affairs of men in the nation. The youth are satan’s target for he knows that when they have consecrated themselves to God, they will be mightily used as part of the end-time army.

We have a special call as a nation. And allowing mockery and satanic worship by a self-confessed mother monster will disqualify us in fulfilling the call as well as in the race God has set before us as a nation.. This should not be taken lightly.

I am still believing God for a miracle. I just want to say that Im still not in favor of this concert. Your will be done Lord. Display your mighty acts. GOD HAVE MERCY FOR YOURS ARE THE YOUTH OF THE PHILIPPINES..

We will overcome the enemy by the blood of the lamb, we will silence his authority by the word of our testimony.. we will fight the good fight of faith, we will the run the race and keep the faith, NOT LOVING OUR LIVES SO MUCH EVEN UNTO DEATH. So Church of God ARISE in the righteousness of Christ, It’s now time to shine for the Glory of the Lord is upon us.. so church of God be strong for nations will come to your light and kings to knowledge of our rising.. victory is at hand.

OOOOOOOOH. CHINA? THEY CAN’T TOUCH US.

I know. It’s all over the news… China threatening us, limiting and regulating flights going to Philippines, they’re planning to pull-out our banana exports, warships, hostile and intimidating words.. our troops and people not prepared for another war, we only have 2 warships (if you can still call it a warship)… options are the art of the diplomacy, assistance of the US or we’ll just hand our Spratly Islands and ScarboroughShoal or Panatag Island to CHINA.

parang it’s so impossible for us, the PHILIPPINES, the only Christian nation, a country of warm-caring-smiling-kindhearted people to fight back knowing that we’re not that prepared when it comes to facing the threats of giant china and… *ehem.. some of the officials are still holding on to their vested interests. 

Let go and Compromise? I think that is not an option. Our land has been raped by foreigners, our minerals and natural resources abused and taken.. our people exploited, and yeah, we are poor in the world’s eyes… because they’ve made us believe this lie. ENOUGH! I will not let my generation and the preceding generations suffer!

Now, i guess you’re thinking, ‘what can this fresh-grad girl do?’

Well, Im not just a fresh-grad girl… I am a christian.. I believe in a living God. My heavenly father can do anything…

Yeah. I may sound cheesy and religious. well, to tell you honestly, I hate religion. I know for a fact that religion can’t save people. But having true relationship and connection with JESUS can save me and my country.

For how many times GOd saved this nation from calamities.. during the 9.1 earthquake in Japan… it’s expected that we’re next in line.. CNN and other concern Foreign media groups are looking at us.. but through the prayers and intercession of the christians, we were not hit.

It’s irking to hear people say that praying and trusting GOd for the matter is the last resort. NO. dapat yun yung first.. dahil ba natry na lahat ng option and hindi nagwork si Lord nalang bahala? why not trust Him first? what’s wrong with us people? He can do more than what our hands can.. He can win this without even lifting a finger..

He gave an instruction through the prophets… fast and do WORSHIP, WARFARE AND INTERCESSION. If Christians or even non-christians cooperate, for the sake of our beloved nation, China will not have the power over us.

If ever God allowed us to be bullied by this bird of prey, remember the exodus times, when GOd hardened the heart of pharaoh and his officials so that HE may display His mighty acts and people will know that there is God in Israel., in our case, there is GOd in the Philippines.

I know greater things have yet to come…I am standing in the gap for the destiny of my country and generation..

and speaking of generation, I will not let anything or anyone like lady gaga and her evil songs take our destiny. we are born in such a time as this..we are called for a purpose. a special calling no other generation can fulfill.

the battle is getting intense… His ways are always higher than our ways. It’s about time to trust God and act on His word.. the ‘now’ word then NOTHING WILL BE IMPOSSIBLE.

just read the story of Jehoshaphat when neighboring countries came to make war with Him..

“…Do not be afraid and discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God’s ” -2 Chronicles 20:15

“Early in the morning they left for the Desert of Tekoa. As they set out, Jehoshaphat stood and said, “Listen to me, Judah and people of Jerusalem! Have faith in the Lord your God and you will be upheld; have faith in his prophets and you will be successful.” -2 Chronicles 20:20

end result? VICTORY.

“The fear of the Lord came upon all the kingdoms of the countries when they heard how the Lord had fought against the enemies of Israel” -2 Chronicles 20:29

I went to the mall last week to buy gifts for the people close to my heart.. I visited a bookstore and the hallmark section caught my attention.. it says there “MOTHER’S DAY CARDS”.. hmmmm…wanna know what’s on my mind? yeah. it’s the month of may, mother’s day celebration… 1st mother’s day without a mom.. that sucks.

So I tried not to cry, I even scanned the cards.. It contain famous mother’s day lines/greetings, mother-daughter pictures with heartwarming captions.. well, having seen all of those envy-stimulating-cheesy-cards, I bought one. crazy of me noh?

I really dont know why I bought one. I planned to go to mom’s grave kaya lang I really dont know if I’ll be able to stand the moment..

I’ve seen good sons and daughters post photos of their mom in different social sites, telling how good she is, how blessed they are having a mom like that…

ME? I AM MORE THAN BLESSED TO BE GIVEN A CHANCE TO SPEND 20 YEARS WITH A MOM LIKE MY MOM.. So sweet, caring and loving,..yeah, she gets mad at me pero I appreciate that kasi true love is expressed in correction and discipline. So I wouldn’t be like this without her guidance. I couldn’t say more.. She is just so perfect… and if the argument ‘nobody’s perfect’ will be raised, I’ll just say that she’s close to perfection. a perfect example of an ezer-bride… she loved God more than anything and anyone.. :) I just hope I can be like her.

TO MY MOTHER,

IT WAS ONLY UNTIL I GREW MUCH OLDER THAT I TRULY REALIZE HOW MUCH LOVE YOU GAVE WITH YOUR HEART. THERE ARE SO MANY TIMES, NOW, THAT REMIND ME OF MY CHILDHOOD AND ALL THE TIMES YOU WERE THERE FOR ME. IT’S THESE TIMES THAT HAVE MADE ME UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH LOVE WAS IN YOUR GOOD-NIGHT KISSES..HOW MUCH CONCERN WAS BEHIND ALL YOUR ‘BE CAREFULS’..

…AS I VENTURE OUT IN THE WORLD, BRINGING WITH ME ALL THE CARING AND LOVING WAYS THAT SHAPED MY LIFE, I KNOW, I’LL BE SECURED.

HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY MOM. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

LOVE, YOUR PRINCESS,

GENEVE PRAISE.

I can stare at this for hours! :)

In the autumn on the ground„ between the traffic and the ordinary sounds..I am thinking signs and seasons while a north wind blows through.. I watch as lovers pass me by, Walking stories - whos and hows and whys.. Musing lazily on love, Pondering you.

It’s my caution not the cold. there’s no other hand that i would rather hold. the climate changes, I’m singing for the strangers about you. don’t keep time, slow the pace, Honey hold on if you can…the bets are getting surer now that you’re my man.

I could write a million songs about the way you say my name, I could live a lifetime with you and then do it all again and like I can’t force the sun to rise or hasten summer’s start, neither should I rush my way into your heart… I’ll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell.. When it’s time to walk that way we wanna walk it well..I’ll be waiting for you baby, I’ll be holding back the darkest night, Love is waiting til we’re ready, til it’s right..Love is waiting.

“im sure your mom’s so proud of you” -the usual comment you’ll hear from people. yeah. i bet she’ll be proud.. i know she is already.

i cant stay away from being too emotional. during the interview, I tried my best na iavoid mapunta yung topic sa family ko.. I guess I really dnt want the interview to be that stressful… i wanted to share happy stories. but I guess, what I am going through now is something that will keep the desire of touching people’s lives burning.

i really dont know where to get that happiness. well dont get me wrong here.. i am so thankful for all the blessings God has given me. I am. I really am.. but it’s just that I still want mom here. If you’ll just look into my heart.. you’ll read there.. “KUNG PWEDE KO LANG IBAYAD LAHAT NG AWARDS NA NAKUHA KO MAKABALIK KA LANG.. IBIBIGAY KO LAHAT”

I know I am loved by so many people. Im aware of that. They exert effort to give me good gifts, they buy me stuff. Im grateful.. but somehow, I can say that I can relate to those kids whose parents are working overseas when they say “we dont need things.. we need parents”.. the only difference is.. yung sakin di ko na mkakasama. If only I can do something to bring her back.. I will.

Most of the time I have to force myself to understand everything that’s happening around me. I miss the times wherein I just cry and pour out myself to someone I know will really take time to listen and understand but all I have now is my room and pillow to comfort me. It’s so hard lalo na when people expect much from me.. they expect me to be happy, to mingle with other people, to have fun.. how can I have fun everytime I see families playing around.. It’s like you have to survive everyday, it’s just you and yourself. 

For the past 4 days, I’ve been with people na sobrang mbabait and warm.. pero  nahirapan ako to open myself siguro it’s like for 20 years hindi ako natakot to meet other people knowing some of them may hurt me so many times hanggat di sila npapagod, ok lang yun kasi at the end of the day I know someone like mom will be there for me..and now, Im close to that point of building walls not to keep people out but because my heart’s not ready to get hurt.. i dont think i can take another ounce of life coz life’s never been easy since the day she went home to heaven.

having these feelings wont make me maximize my stay here on earth. it’s like letting go of the opportunities to share life to others. I dont want to let go of what I love doing-touching others’ lives, counseling the youth and being an inspiration, serving God, pursuing his plan for my life..

I was asked by my co-tospian.. “anung gagawin mo if one day nagising ka tapos malaman mong wala palang Diyos”.. I really had a hard time answering that question. mas mlala pa yun kesa mawalan ng mommy. It’s like everything I do in life is for God. I cant imagine life without Him. so I told Him na I’ll still live my life worth living.. on second thought, life will never be worth living if not for God diba? So I’ll better be dead. I dont know. Nevermind. HAHA. I;ve been too busy with my emotions, I miss spending hours reading my Bible and listening to God. I wanna be there again.. I want to feel that sense of security kahit every aspect of my life is shaken. You give and take away Lord, but my heart will choose to say Blessed be your name.

There’s distance in the air and I cannot make it leave. i wave my arms’ round about me and blow with all my might. I cannot sense you close, though I know you’re always here but the comfort of you near is what i long for. All the folly of the past, though I know it is undone i still feel the guilty one, still trying to make it right so i whisper soft your name, let it roll around my tounge, knowing you’re the only one who knows me. You know me. When I can’t feel you, I have learned to reach out just the same. When I can’t hear you, I know you still hear everyword I pray, And i want you more than i want to live another day and as I wait for you maybe I’m made more faithful. So show me how I should live this, show me where I should walk, I count this world as loss to me. You are all I want.

I’ve been staring at the sky tonight, marvelling and passing time.. wondering what to do with daylight until I can make you mine. I’ve been thinking of changing my mind, it never stays the same for long, but of all the things I know for sure, you’re the only certain one. I’ve been counting up all my wrongs, one sorry for each star, see I’d apologise my way to you if the heavens stretched that far.. I won’t find what I am looking for if I only “see” by keeping score.. I know now you are so much more than arithmetic. if I add, if I subtract, if I give it all, try to take some back, I’ve forgotten the freedom that comes from the fact that you are the sum.. So you are the one I want.. When the years are showing on my face, and my strongest days are gone, when my heart and flesh depart this place from a life that sung your song..You’ll still be the one I want.